I’ve decided that I have a love/hate and bitter/sweet
relationship with time. This seems to be
the case regardless of whether I am waiting in anticipation for something ; reflecting
on the past, or even considering the
time that led up to the event that I had previously anticipated for so long.
For example; when you consider a 25 year period of “time” it
seems it is something that will take forever to get here. However, my first
daughter is 25 years old and when I think about that, it seems like it was just
yesterday when she was running around building la-de-ta-dee’s and chasing
“stomy” (aka stoRmy) through the house.
Now, she is a beautiful mommy with a busy toddler of her own running around their
house!
I am looking forward to Christmas. Not for presents, but
because that is the next time I will get to speak with my baby boy. I got to
talk to him today for the first time in 6 weeks. Yes, before that 6 weeks
started I thought it would pass slowly but in retrospect, it really did go by
fast. I am anticipating Christmas day when we get to talk to him again and I
have established little points in between as things for me to look forward to
that will help make that time pass more quickly through the “waiting in
anticipation” point of view.
As to the full two years that Elder Kuhn will be gone… I am
trying not to think about it in that perspective. Yes, I miss him and will miss
him every day but dwelling on that will not make the time pass any more quickly.
Rather, I am trying to shift my focus to the bigger picture and be thankful for
the wonderful choice he has made and the work he is doing on behalf of the
Lord.
Time is a precious commodity whether going quickly or
slowly. How grateful I am for the joy I have received over time, from being a
wife and mother. I am blessed with a loving, hard-working husband, three
amazing and wonderful children, a son-in-law that loves his family, and a
beautiful grandson. I look forward to the many other times of anticipation and
reflection that time will bring!
